Thursday, January 14, 2010

Day 102

Today is a "believe" day. Yep, that is the cup I am using this morning. As I sit here at my mobile office (today it is the kitchen bench) with my ionic salt lamp on one side and my potted flamingo flower on the other, I contemplate the year ahead and the whole work/life balance conundrum. I can hear the kids out there on the trampoline (yes it is up and functional and they love it), I can hear my husband in the dining room sitting at his mobile office, there are dogs barking in a yard nearby, the washing machine is going downstairs, birds are singing, the sun is shining and life is good. I can hear the buzz of traffic in the distance as everyone shuffles their way to work in the throng that is peak hour. I am grateful I am no longer part of that throng, but I realise that when I was, I was actually earning a bloody good wage and contributing healthily to the family budget. There was a time when I was the main breadwinner (albeit a short time but there WAS a time). Do I really want to go back to that? Do I have a choice?

As my books sit with a major publishing house awaiting their final verdict, and as I try to run my little business in a mobile world around school hours, volunteer work and family duties, I wonder if I should be going back into the full time business world. The kids would need to go to after-school-care, and I would have to put other things on hold (because there just aren't enough hours in the day), plus my role as Principal Coach and Joint Coordinator with the school cheerleading squad would have to be analysed carefully, and my other volunteer work would cease, and the house work would have to be shared, but I could do it (we could do it). Other people do it. I used to do it! But you know what? I've done that. I HAD a perfectly good career, I HAD a job that I loved (and which seemed to love me back), I HAD the money and the car spot and the office, I HAD my kids in daycare and a house that was spotless because we paid for a cleaner (and because no one lived in it as no one was home). I HAD all that and we all made a conscious and well researched decision for me to come home. And I will never regret that decision because it gave me my family back, and I have been able to contribute back to society in a way that surpasses money, and I was able to follow my dreams.

But the reality is we need more money soooo .... is there a middle ground? Hmmmm. Where is the ultimate balance? Can I actually have my cake AND eat it too? I don't suppose I have to go back out there and chase a career. I could just get a job that fits in with my current work. Yes, maybe I could even have someone pay me directly for the work I already do as a life coach! Yes!! There has got to be a way ....

As I sit here in my mobile office, drinking green tea from my "believe" mug and listen to the sounds of my stay-at-home world, I contemplate the opportunities that await me. My books will be published this year, and my business will continue to grow, AND I will contribute to the family funds. Yep ... I know it to be true ... how do I know? Because I believe ...

2 comments :

  1. No you can have your cake and eat it too, just as I believe that I can work three to four days a week, bushwalk every Monday and chip away at achieving my life purpose.

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  2. Ahh Grasshopper! You are so wise. Yes! the keeping of the cake and the eating of the cake is possible ...

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