Friday, December 31, 2010

Day 451

This time last year I was a cranky little bitch.  I didn’t quite see it at the time, but in hindsight I can now see I was “testy” to say the least.  It wasn’t until I shuffled and bumped my way through new year that I realised it was because I was felt I was ending the year incomplete. 

This time last year I fully expected to be published. This time last year I was feeling a little inadequate I guess.  We had financial concerns yet I still wasn’t contributing to the pot of money because all my energies were being placed into my kids books.  Sure, sure, sure. I had managed to write 4 kids books in a 9 month period.  That’s something to celebrate. Sure, sure, sure.  I had secured both Johanna and Antonia to write the Forewords.  Another “woot woot” to be had there. But no publisher. No point having a stack of perfectly typed manuscripts if they were going to spend their lives in a box. 

This year I haven’t written any more books.  I have four in my mind, but nothing on paper yet.  This year I haven’t managed to secure any new parents of profile.  I have written to a few but nothing to report yet.  This year I am still not published. But this year, I do have a publisher!  This year, despite my lack of progress in some areas, I am inching towards completion.  While in some ways I achieved less, I also achieved more. 

I’m not much into NY resolutions.  Yes, I do set goals, but I do that daily.  However last year as I sat staring at my grumpy and somewhat “dusty” face at my New Year’s Day “I’ve had too many bourbons” mirror, I saw the slogan on my t-shirt.  It said “Free to Dream”.  You can read about it here. So I made that my mantra for the year.  That gave me permission to continue on with my journey to get these kids books published.  Free to dream. Because without dreams how can you strive to go beyond?

So what’s my mantra this year? Well the word “intention” is now firmly ingrained in my vocabulary.  Resolutions are bogus, to set goals is so yesterday, and the word dream is “sooooooo last year”.  It’s now time to set intentions.  I INTEND to make measurable progress in reasonable time. I INTEND continual forward movement. I INTEND to bring this dream to fruition.  I INTEND ….

What do you intend to do?

PS: I just re-read my NY post from this year (link above). Wish I hadn't.  Didn't accomplish half as much as I'd hoped. Fuck. Who's idea was it to blog all this shit anyway, putting it all in concrete and all? Stupid. Hmph. I did go trapeze flying though! Perhaps this whole power of intention thing will do the trick this year ...


Right now I intend to Flog My Blog (and yours to if you'll let me). Climb aboard the blogotron!

4 comments :

  1. so lovely to find your blog and to find your interest in writing and getting published. what an awesome goal and I look forward to following your journey. I hope it works out for 2011 and you enjoy feeling fabulous at 40 - I am hitting 40 in a couple of years and really looking forward to it!

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  2. I've just done a similar post. I managed to achieve three out of eight of my resolutions from last year. I don't even want to know what percentage that is!

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  3. Hi Leanne,

    I am back on the blogosphere, hope you have a hoot tonight. Things are happening here, lots of work but well worth it.

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  4. It is fantastic to hear that other people are getting published - gives the rest of us mere mortals hope that we will one day achieve the same! Good work :)

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