Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Day 770

Sometimes it's just time for a good cry.  There might be a trigger, but there doesn't have to be a reason.  You've just got to purge.

Sometimes there is a reason.

Sometimes there are lots of reasons.

Sometimes there are none.

I purged last night.

It was time.

Why?

Well, just because.

Last night I had a good cry because:

  • I have misplaced (possible lost) my camera
  • My face is fuzzy and I need Nair
  • I have too much going on inside my head and the chatter won't let me sleep
  • My neck suddenly got really saggy overnight
  • I have an empty scrunched up paper bag permanently living on my stomach
  • I can' t live with my messy family
  • I couldn't live without my messy family
  • I have friends going through divorce
  • Sometimes divorce appeals to me
  • I'm scared of divorce
  • I don't want to get a divorce
  • I am tired
  • I am nervous
  • I am sad
  • At Nationals this weekend it will be the last time I ever coach the cheer squad I created back in 2008
  • I am scared of letting go
  • I am relieved to be letting go
  • I am scared I won't achieve my vision for the future 
  • I am scared I will actually achieve my vision for the future
  • I watched Ellen and there was a family reunited after 7 months of both parents being absent due to war
  • My kids are growing
  • My daughter is becoming a beautiful young woman
  • My daughter is becoming a moody little cow
  • My son is making progress at school
  • My son is not making progress at school
  • I am tired
  • I've got Nationals this weekend
  • I'm too emotionally involved 
  • I'm going to have to hand it all over
  • It will no longer be mine
  • One baby is leaving the nest making room for new babies to arrive
  • Just because
A counselor friend of mine once said "it's important to schedule yourself a breakdown ... that way it won't sneak up on you at inopportune moments".  I often pass on that advice to clients.  I had my scheduled breakdown between 10.30 and midnight last night.  Today I feel a whole lot better.

3 comments :

  1. Bloody sad movies do it for me. And some not so sad ones too.

    On a positive note, I received my copy of the book yesterday! Yays!

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  2. Cool! What do you think? Is there a "testimonial" inside you to add to my website?

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  3. Well I feel better after all that! Happens to me on an all too regular basis. Usually unscheduled & inconvenient. I'm going through a few of those moments myself with my kids changing, my world is changing (a son finishing Yr 12, a daughter finishing yr 10 & a Mum who's happy, but scared to let go (& often can't wait to let go!) Have an amazing time in Brisbane. It's what you guys have worked so hard to achieve. At least you're going out on a high note! Hugs xx

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