Day 680

I am still dizzy.  Although I have to say the light-headedness doesn't seem as bad as it has been. Either that or I am just learning to live with it.

I am still dropping things and falling up stairs (yes ... not down, but up ... which is a good thing).  I've been seeing the neuro physio for a few weeks now and whenever she does work on my neck it makes an impact.  Unfortunately I actually get dizzier ... but at least that's a sign that my neck has something to do with it.  I am thinking perhaps there is a J-Curve effect in play where things have to get worse before they get better.

There are days when I am almost completely back to normal. Then there are days where I can hardly stand.  There's a whole bunch of fatigue associated with it too which is interesting.  Maybe that's all it is?  Another bout of chronic fatigue syndrome?  I had that way back at uni 20+ years ago.  I don't remember any dizziness or light headedness with it though.  Sigh.

There was a thought that it might be anxiety related.  That it may all be stress induced. I argued this strongly because I am not feeling stressed .... unless I am dizzy, and then THAT stresses me.  The stress is not causing the illness ... the illness is causing the stress.  I proved that when I fronted up to the first cheer comp the other week and I was well all day.  No dizziness in sight.  Now if it was stress or anxiety related I should have caved right there on the cheer floor, right?  Nope.

I don't know.  But whatever it is it's kinda getting better and it's kinda not.  I'm a bit confused ...

This morning I feel good! So let's just go with that.