Sometimes there is a reason.
Sometimes there are lots of reasons.
Sometimes there are none.
I purged last night.
It was time.
Why?
Well, just because.
Last night I had a good cry because:
- I have misplaced (possible lost) my camera
- My face is fuzzy and I need Nair
- I have too much going on inside my head and the chatter won't let me sleep
- My neck suddenly got really saggy overnight
- I have an empty scrunched up paper bag permanently living on my stomach
- I can' t live with my messy family
- I couldn't live without my messy family
- I have friends going through divorce
- Sometimes divorce appeals to me
- I'm scared of divorce
- I don't want to get a divorce
- I am tired
- I am nervous
- I am sad
- At Nationals this weekend it will be the last time I ever coach the cheer squad I created back in 2008
- I am scared of letting go
- I am relieved to be letting go
- I am scared I won't achieve my vision for the future
- I am scared I will actually achieve my vision for the future
- I watched Ellen and there was a family reunited after 7 months of both parents being absent due to war
- My kids are growing
- My daughter is becoming a beautiful young woman
- My daughter is becoming a moody little cow
- My son is making progress at school
- My son is not making progress at school
- I am tired
- I've got Nationals this weekend
- I'm too emotionally involved
- I'm going to have to hand it all over
- It will no longer be mine
- One baby is leaving the nest making room for new babies to arrive
- Just because
A counselor friend of mine once said "it's important to schedule yourself a breakdown ... that way it won't sneak up on you at inopportune moments". I often pass on that advice to clients. I had my scheduled breakdown between 10.30 and midnight last night. Today I feel a whole lot better.
Bloody sad movies do it for me. And some not so sad ones too.
ReplyDeleteOn a positive note, I received my copy of the book yesterday! Yays!
Cool! What do you think? Is there a "testimonial" inside you to add to my website?
ReplyDeleteWell I feel better after all that! Happens to me on an all too regular basis. Usually unscheduled & inconvenient. I'm going through a few of those moments myself with my kids changing, my world is changing (a son finishing Yr 12, a daughter finishing yr 10 & a Mum who's happy, but scared to let go (& often can't wait to let go!) Have an amazing time in Brisbane. It's what you guys have worked so hard to achieve. At least you're going out on a high note! Hugs xx
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