It's been a long time since I've felt any energy towards my own projects. The magazine is over 6 months late and my books have been lying dormant in my garage without a distributor, any advertising or any great desire to get them back "out there". My consultancy business is all but shut down.
But little by little my mojo is returning.
Is it the baby steps?
Is it the relief of seeing the magazine almost finished?
Is the stuff we've put in our diaries of events to look forward to?
Is it the message from a parent telling me her daughter loves my books so much she had to buy the whole set after reading just one?
Is it the continual support and encouragement of friends and family?
Is the understanding of those closest to me and knowing not to add pressure?
Is it the words of a parent who thanked me for giving their child the opportunity to shine?
Is it the fact that my bestie arrives from the USA in just 4 days times?
Is it all of the above?
Or is it simply time?
Whatever it is there is something going on inside me that is building into something that somewhat resembles the old me.
The person who started this blog almost 10 years ago as a way to combat middle age.
The person who created a place to write and express herself in the positive light in the hope of inspiring others to live their best life.
The person who turns 50 in just four months and wants to embrace her half century with much celebration.
Celebration. There's a word I haven't thought about in a long time.
I write this from the desk at the Crown Metropol in Melbourne as I accompany my hubby on an overnight work trip. The first time we've both looked forward to something since ....
(I don't need to finish that sentence).
There are things I am unable to change about life. There are people who will never return. There are others who don't see the world as I see it. And I can't change any of that.
All I can do is move forward in our new normal as best I can. I owe it to those around me. I owe it to the kids my work has connected with. I owe it to my husband and my kids. I owe it to myself. I owe it to the memory of those who are no longer with us.
It seems like my mojo may be returning.
Thank you readers for being patient with me as I awaited its return. Thank you to my blogger friends who have seen very little of me in their space yet continue to visit mine anyway. Thank you friends and family for being in my corner.
Thanks for listening as I've babbled on today about what's going on inside me so I can set it free.
Thanks hubby for a lovely overnight stay in Melbourne. Let's go shopping!
(See you soon bestie).
How's your mojo?
Do you have any get-up-and-go-jo?
Anyone else ready to go shopping?
It's Lovin' Life Linky time. What are you lovin' about life this week?
I don't know what it is. It's not time per se, tho perhaps time to process (not process and resolve, just work through feelings. They don't go away but they need to be listened to and expressed). I am glad you are both looking forward to the trip. It's nice to find comfort and pleasure together. Enjoy as you can. xx
ReplyDeleteThanks L xo
DeleteGood to see your light surfacing once more.
ReplyDeleteI live in hope my writing mojo may return but suspect that baton may remain with the next gen.
Madmother
Your next gen will serve it well too T!
DeleteHave a wonderful time with your hubby in Melbourne, Leanne, followed by a fabulous time with your bestie! #lovinlifelinky
ReplyDeleteMelbourne was great. Bestie in two days!
DeleteI suspect it's all of the above...and a fabulous burnt orange poncho. Enjoy...
ReplyDeleteThat poncho is pretty cool
DeleteIt is what it is. My husband tells me this a lot. It actually doesn't matter WHAT it is because you can sense 'you' being back. She will have some highs, lows and everything in between still but it will be better managed I reckon after this recent time. Today is different to yesterday as it will be tomorrow. I learn this every.single.day in my healing from cancer. Denyse x
ReplyDeleteYep, it is what it is. Congrats on your big milestone!
DeleteHi Leanne I'm so happy you are starting to get your mojo back. I believe that it is all about TIME. Sometimes we just have to give ourselves time, space and a little nurturing. Glad that you are feeling better! #lovinlifelinky
ReplyDeleteTime. It's an interesting concept, time.
DeleteExcellent to see you starting to get that glow back again, Leanne!
ReplyDeleteSSG xxx
We must catch up IRL again soon SSG
DeleteHow lovely to have a getaway. I'm fantasising about something similar myself. It's not that long since my Italian holiday (though nearly 8mths) though it's hard to think of a reason to 'getaway' given I do SFA at home anyway. I keep my fingers crossed on the job front and hope I'll be able to stress less soon.
ReplyDeleteI think it's probably a combination of all of the things you mention. I think it takes time and I know (from my experience) there's a sense of guilt that you get to move on and enjoy yourself but it doesn't mean you forget. xxx
You helped with this you know. Just being there at the other end checking in and holding me accountable for my magazine. It's you that got me going Deb. You have powers. Those powers will work for you too.
DeleteThanks lovely. Have been struggling again finding out I didn't get a job I'd (expected? - does that sound arrogant?) to but I realise I just need to keep plodding. xxx
DeleteThe smile on your face says it all. Thank you so much for this thoughtful post, as I think we can all relate to this. Yes - All I can do is move forward in our new normal as best I can.
ReplyDeleteThanks Jill. Smiling without forcing it is a good feeling
DeleteI'm so glad you're starting to feel a bit more you again. Enjoy the trip away! I'm heading to Melbourne with my daughter next week to see the Harry Potter and the Cursed Child productions. Can't wait! xo #TeamLovinLife
ReplyDeleteOoooooh, can't wait to hear all about it.
DeleteYou're looking good, lovely lady. BTW you scored a mention and a link on my blog today: https://www.middleagedmama.com.au/where-have-all-the-comments-gone/
ReplyDeleteYay!!! Thanks. LOL. Where have all the comments gone ... on my way to your joint now to read how I've stopped commenting. Oops!
DeleteLooking nice and I am glad that your mojo is returning. Happy for you. Thanks for hosting and I hope that you have a wonderful week.
ReplyDeleteThanks for always visiting even when I don't always visit back! Enjoy your week too.
DeleteI'm so glad your mojo is returning and it looks like you have some wonderful things to look forward to!
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